creativity 8........it hits the fan

I am no closer to understanding the root of creativity and have not been able to decipher my own creative pattern, and I think there is now a lot more than meets the eye in creativity if you know what I mean, but its not all bad I have found out things about myself that will help down the road and I have found the limit in to which I can push my self in doing work, I know there are thing with creativity that I know and can now understand but it has raised loads of questions about my self and my spark of creativity, I just don't know any more..........arrrghh ....it matters not I have figured out some thing that most have not and I intend to use this insight to gathering as much skill as I can get my mind round, that is one thing I have learn't time and time again that you have no chance of being able to draw what you see if you don't understand it, I mean that if you see someones work and you think"owwww that head looks good I'll draw that"and you can because you don't understand what the artist was thinking when he drew it and how the mechanism works round the back, you just cant do it.....any way!!!

I have tried to understand the root of all creativity and it just chewed me up and spit me out, there are parts I get like inspiration is the cornerstone of the creative insight but there are factors that come in to it that probably should not come in to it, you know human things like being tired and hungry, but spending the day drawing does use alot of energy in you body, I mean take that for instance pushing a pencil across paper doesn't take up much energy its the creative mind waxes energy while you work. after doing these blogs I do think the mind is like a muscle the way it takes things in and if you don't use it, it suffers and gets slack again.

I still am undecided at the amount of my creative knowledge, and I don't know how far it will take me but I still want to improve my creative mind and see what I can do in a year, It used to be that I improved every other week and could look back on my work from a week ago and see an improvement and I also used to get a great boost of trying to beat my brother in art but he has let his drawing fall down and I have probably surpassed him and thats not good because he was probably my main driving factor and now it is no more.!!!