creativity 4.... it starts

I have decided in steed of just trying to figure out what creativity is, I'am going to try and decipher what make my creativity tick.... so to speak.

I will start of with what I now see creativity as, and then move on to trying to figure out the way that I'm inspired and why it inspires me... and what i hope to achieve with my creativity.

I think creativity isn't a state of mind or a part of you that thirsts for imagery in every thing it sees..... this is not right because if it where so then artist would never leave there house they be on the computer searching for imagery and would never leave, so I think that it is a sort driving need that keeps you going to create the best thing that you can and the 1 law I have all way agreed on with art is what my dad has told me since i was young is that you should never be happy with your work, because it is never done and once you think that you have achieved what you set out to do, then you have no more to give and that is why I am all ways unhappy with my work..... I guess that it is more of a way of life than a way to do art.... but none the less I live by that reasoning and it might be the answer that I'm searching for the reason behind my creativity but I don't know yet so I will keep searching for my creative path until I am sure of what make my brain or my heart give out what it does, and I will also look in to the different things that inspire me......!!!

I went to look at my home town the other day and it is a dismal waste of human interaction upon are earth, and this made me think that its not the town or the people in it that feed my creativity but the surrounding area in which i have grown up in and the things that
I have seen, I know there are sheep out here in wales and that they are bouring.............. its not the fact that the sheep suck, its the fact that the surrounding area inspires me to create some thing and in an area like the one I live in there is peace and you can listen to yourself and really get the idea down because you don't have no people, no cars and no fools walking around talking shit...... just the sound of a river slow and steady and a fire burning away in front of you.... I know I went of subject but its important stuff because I hope to find in my roots the key to my creativity, I don't know if what I'm looking for is there or not, but its a good place to start looking....... the past.